I have not had human contact for just over 50 hours now. It has not been fun. It will be another 12 hours until I meet another fellow human being, most probably the librarian.
It has driven me to the edge of my sanity and back. The first half wasnt so bad, I watched some funny movies (Galaxy Quest & Harold and Kumar), read a lot, and spoke to my parents once. The second half was pure unadulterated madness. Crazy thoughts swarming around my head, a mish mash of everything I’ve read over the past week, Carl Sagan, Bret Easton Ellis, Pete Lunn, Jiddu Krishnamurti.
Carl Sagan’s ‘Pale Blue Dot‘ is perhaps too revolutionary for the mind to handle. Too many questions arise, what is the significance in such insignificance; why take the effort; what can we do to make a difference and so on. I plan on reading his book,’Cosmos‘ soon to see where it leads me.
Jiddu Krishnamurti’s ‘This Matter of Culture’ is also revolutionary and thought provoking, encouraging you to ‘break free’ out of this monotonous life dictated by society, rebel against the everything you’ve ever learned, question everything you cannot verify for yourself, dont aspire to be someone, rather accept who you are and live life for yourself.
Bret Easton Ellis’ infamous ‘American Psycho‘ is much more uninhibited than the movie. While it is quite unlike the other books I’m reading, the style of Ellis’ writing is strangely captivating and more than often, you find yourself lost in his world. It is unnecessarily highly detailed and the intricate descriptions of even the smallest of objects is both a turn on and a turn off.
Pete Lunn’s ‘Basic Instincts‘(which I have a signed copy of) is another book that does a marvellous job of arousing the brain. Written on the topic of Behavioural Economics, it investigates the very basic theories of economics upon which my entire University education has been based upon and successfully manages to smash some of the primary economic theories which we had always taken for granted as students. It has gotten me thinking, about economics, about what this education is going to lead to, and why I began studying economics in the first place.
I am yet to finish all the books, I’m reading them all a bit by bit and giving myself time to think, ponder and realize. The Art of Manliness is a blog I have recently become a fan of. Its got excellent articles on ‘being a man’ and would probably do much good for a lot of people I know. It has also stirred some thoughts which I’ve temporarily buried for dealing with later because I may actually go clinically mad if I try and deal with everything at once. Their latest blog post encourages you to be simple with everything in life while also being smart and efficient. I’ve been contemplating that concept while taking some long soaks in the bathtub which I must add, is quite possibly one of best relaxation techniques invented by mankind.
Writing a 10,000 word dissertation with all these questions in your head takes some effort. In addition to that, I have that ever itching trigger finger wanting to go and take some photos on beautiful beautiful film but cannot do so because film is so fucking expensive, both to buy and process. Meanwhile, I look forward to the Big British Fete on the 15th of May, which I’m partly organizing and it will have the usual plethora of Real Ale, BBQs, lots of games and a Queen tribute band to top it all off. Apart from that, there is the inevitable Presidency coming up where I will the leader of 12,000 students and a £4.5 million organization. Fun. I will also most probably doing a photoshoot with a friend, planned for the next couple of months which should satisfy my unquenchable thirst for photography. And I’ll be heading into that wonderful city they call London, sometime in the near future, which means I’ll have to cut my hair and shave my beard.
I’ve also learnt that the sharper you dress, the more respect you earn. Clothes dont make the man you say? What a load of bollocks. If there is one thing you can learn from this article, make sure you pay attention to your appearance. Comb your hair, iron your clothes, dress sharp, look smooth, polish your shoes and walk with your head held high. And if you’ve got the time, make sure you watch ‘The Wrestler‘, the movie teaches you more about life in 100 minutes than an average school does in a year.
As I sit here, my head is processing too much. What am I doing here, what should I eat for dinner, where will I go next in life, what do I really want to do with my life, what I will most probably end up doing, when will I buy a gorgeous 500cc Bullet, why are most women so completely mindless, when will the world realize Vinyl is better than MP3, and why, oh, why is KFC the most delicious meal I can get in this country‽ (Yes, that is an Interrobang)
What next?
I dont know. I’m just a kid stuck in a Bass Trap. Life is sometime too confusing for its own good. Ignorance is bliss, they say. Alas, I am yet to experience that bliss because they also told me that knowledge is power. Is power worth the effort? I dont know.
I only hope that my father was right when he told me that confusion is the beginning of clarity.
PS – If this post makes absolutely no sense, I apologize.
PPS – I’ve also made a much needed update to the ‘About Me‘ page.
Currently listening to – Greatest Love of All by Whitney Houston (on the recommendation of Patrick Bateman)
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